Friday, December 18, 2015

A Damned Good Story of Friendship

(These words were written by Arthur James Brooks Jr. and sent to Harlan B. Hodge. They are reposted here by Harlan and  are unedited)

There I was placed in St. John's Comatose Rehabilitation slowly becoming more acclimated to life after the motorcycle accident.  I still couldn't talk at that time nor could I walk, however, I was able to sit up and entertain company.  When I say entertain company I mean simply sit up in my bed and listen to them communicate with me.
    My progression was more advanced and I could even play the thumb wrestling game with my father.  I was able to be moved in a wheelchair to the hospital cafeteria and the outside patio with my father to enjoy a change of surroundings and partake of a nice cafeteria meal at times.  My father would simply just talk to me and I'd listen so very attentively.  His conversing with me mutually helped the both of us deal with the difficult times that we were dealing with and the trying times we'd face in the future.
    My father would speak to me very positively and I admired the many things that he'd have to do for me as my caregiver.  Those moments that we'd spend at the hospital cafeteria and outside patio were refreshing for the both of us.  I was able to breathe some fresh air from outside and it gave me a sense of invigoration and freedom.  Those times I'd spend with my father were so encouraging and helped me better visualize the future, recuperated, productive Arthur James Brooks Junior.
    My mother sister, cousins, aunts friends and such would come and visit me in my hospital room and that was so refreshing.
    A great college friend of mine named Harlan Hodge also was a part of my support system.  Harlan had flown out to Phoenix, Arizona in the past to visit me from St. Louis, Missouri.  Harlan and I were tight friends and him seeing the traumatically brain injured, visually impaired, physically impaired man that I'd became was so difficult for him to witness.  Harlan had known me is the confident, aspiring, young man that I was and for him to view me in such an impaired status at that time didn't coincide with the friend he'd come to know.
    Harlan was married and his wife had recently been diagnosed with having Multiple Sclerosis and her health was declining greatly.  One night Harlan was just feeling really unsettled because of his wife's poor health and he contemplated coming to visit me in my hospital room.  Harlan was feeling really low because of his wife and he didn't know if he could quite handle seeing me in an impaired condition as well.
    He was driving by the hospital and he decided that he'd just come and give me a visit and he decided to do so very hesitantly.  Harlan wasn't in the best of moods because of the failing health of his wife, however, he also cared very much for my well being.  Harlan decided that he'd come and pay me a quick visit and he just went on via his faith and companionship.
    Harlan walked to my hospital room feeling tired, awkward and nervous.  Now Harlan hadn't visited me in some time so he didn't know any digressions or progressions that I had made since he last visited me.  Harlan that night was emotionally troubled because of his wife's health condition, but, he felt it necessary to come and at least give me a quick visit at the hospital.
    Now the last time Harlan had come to visit me I wasn't even able to move my body at all.  Harlan saw my mother at my bedside when he walked in the room and he greeted my mother.  Now Harlan saw my mother talking to me like I understood her and Harlan figured that was her merely doing that for her own composure and peace of mind.  Harlan listened to my mother just continue talking to me and his heart just went out to my mother.
    My mother then said something to Harlan that shocked or surprised him and did place him into an awkward disposition for the moment.  My mother then told Harlan that I was able to write my thoughts out on paper to a certain extent.  Harlan was confused and my mother placed a pen in my right hand and placed my hand on a piece of paper.  Harlan just stood there watching me and he was busy trying to comprehend just what he was watching.
    I had known how difficult it was for Harlan to see me in the position that I was in considering the abilities that I had prior to the motorcycle accident.  I was devout on improving myself completely and I wish to communicate that thought with him.  My thoughts left my well being for the moment and focused on consoling Harlan.
    I thought to myself exactly what I could write on this piece of paper to ease Harlan's worries about my state of being.  I focused my self and wrote these words "Jus give me some time.".  My mother handed the note to Harlan and he was so moved that he had to walk down the hall with joyful tears in his eyes.
    Even though I couldn't talk I still was able to impart my thoughts to my great friend to help ease his concerns and pain about my situation.  Harlan said that note that I wrote to him replenished, reinvigorated and stabilized his thoughts and spirits.  I was able to communicate that simple sentence to Harlan and that is what I truly felt and proclaimed even if it was by just jotting it down on a little piece of paper.   

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Encouraging Contemplations 1-02-08

Hartland Hodge I wish you a prosperous existence for you are an individual whom has the uncanny ability to erect positivity from seemingly sheer nothingness. And I chose to use the words "seemingly sheer nothingness" because you have an entrepreneurial state of mind which enjoys bringing things to life that will better the community as well as yourself. Now I could be mistaken, however, I've never known you to be soley driven per the want to obtain a vast amount of finances for self. Now I have known you to want to better others by means of teaching the fundamentals that one would need to be a productive member of society. I have always sensed a hint of you wanting to be amongst those whom made the formatting and or managing and supervisory status of something viable. I caught a hint of that want in you when I learned that you partook of an internship that placed you in a vocation with the Boy Scouts of America. I was impressed with the fact that you actually held an internship with the Boyscouts of America. Now I imagined myself in your shoes before I graduated from T.S.U. and said that I'd not want to get an internship with the Boyscouts of America if I were to be an Inroder. I would have wanted a job with a major corporation like I.B.M., Lucent Technologies, Motorola or the like. Then again I was not geared in the same field or want for that matter as you were directed. Primarily I wanted to be in a position whereby I could make an above average wage and I would have knowledge and skill that other companies desired. I had planned to work for a few different companies and then branch off into doing contractual work. Whilst being a contractor I would build a firmer knowledge of the computer realm and than I would begin my own contractual firm with a few other choice individuals. Now this desire in me had been given birth whilst I was in college and I began to form a landscape of my future career. I wanted to know and be able to do things in the technical field that would cause agreements to be made by other companies to literally pay my future co owned firm extremely well for it's services. Now mind you that was the thought of me back in the mid to late nineties and I was in route to materializing such a goal. Now mind you it was hard work and my time for self was sparse. I would work overtime hours at work and "just" a 40 hour work week was seldom realized. I had streamlined my life for the most part to accomplishing a annual high 6 figure low 7 figure salary within an approximate decade timespan. I had a girl that would satisfy my manly desires any time that I wished for them to be quenched and she allowed me to have her whenever, however and where ever. She bequeath herself to me and she was fairly of the acceptance of me putting work, grad school class, studying, exercising and miscellaneous time for whatever abs cure things that would come about before dealing with her. In hindsight Hartland I should have treated her better and I would do certain things being of the mutually agreed upon understanding that if she did not like the situation then I would send her out to the pasture. Now Harlan I had no ill will in me it was just that I determined that I wanted financial freedom before I hit the age of 50 years old. In hindsight the chances of me arriving at my goal would have driven me so far from obtaining or even wanting a valid Christian spiritual saturation. As I had little knowledge of the gospels back before my motorcycle accident and I had a bare minimum want to learn of the Word. Now I am tempted to want to hate the mentality of the old (me), but, I have made my piece with God and asked him for his forgiveness. And I am bound to live my life to the best of my ability within the parameters of God's Will. Now I wish you great success with your enterprise and I know that you have a good, caring, dedicated heart. And from people with a heart such as you have good things do emerge because Harlan you have a strong work ethic, formidable mind and you give God his praise as you should. You are very resourceful and again you are a man that thinks outside of the box and that demonstrates confidence and belief in self. What I did not take note of when we were in college is your appreciation to the Heavenly Father. Then again if you did in fact give God his necessary praise it would probably have just floated over my head because I was so far from such thoughts. I was not interested in thanking God for the things that I had because believe it or not for the most part I thought that I was well deserving of them. Again in hindsight I feel very foolish, but, you don't know something until you know it and now I definitely know it. Harlan as we all are works in progress and I will be a continual work until my life leaves this world. I thank God for allowing me to learn and live according to his wishes and I am eternally grateful for him allowing me to do so. Harlan I know that starting a company is very hard and the work and attentiveness needed can and probably will seem overwhelming. When such times of frustration come about turn to the scripture, competent individuals and yo boyz (note make sure they are worthy and competent friends). And I'll be beginning my job with the Convergys Corporation next week and I am very excited and blessed. I shall communicate with you via e-mail as I may have thoughts, advice and or questions that I would like to put before you. Continue to do the best that you can and may God continue to bless both you and your son. I shall holla back in due time and God bless.

Scoot

contemplations to Mister Double H Sir 1-14-09


Thunderous applause is unquestionably due to the emerging business escapade of one Harlan B. Hodge. As I dialed your home phone number today with the assuredness of speaking to you I was met with the voice of another person answering your new business phone number. The man answered the phone properly and I had requested to speak to you Harlan. He then told me that you were either not there are not available and I can not directly tell you exactly what he said but it was something to that effect. I was impressed with his business phone decorum and I am further impressed with your materialization of your company. I told the person that answered the phone that I did not really want anything and I told him that for me to leave a message was not necessary. Now I believe in things that I sense are worthy and of a sound foundation and proper ownership and management. And Harlan I believe your company to have the said ingredients to blossom into a fortified business venture. I know that you enjoy the manner of the business that you will be attending to and that is a critical element to have. As you well know or perhaps you are still finding out how difficult setting up and running a business effectively can and will be. One of the best things about your venture is that you enjoy doing the works and you do not mind putting your all into the works. In fact I think that you would have it no other way as to you investing your all in business engagements. It appears to me as though you've taken a hobby to some extent and realized that you have a accelerated ability to do such things better than most people. You seemed to be driven in a way to help actualize or give birth to your workings in an impressive manner. Dare I say Harlan that you seem to almost become a part of your creations to some degree and almost live in your works. My friend you have found an avenue that a businessperson wishes to find and that is doing something that they enjoy doing and doing it for personal and financial profit. As I am now thinking that I may have to change your alias from Double H to Mister Double H Sir. Harlan you know that I wish your business well because you are a good person and you want goodness for yourself, son and peace to be realized for Kamisha. As you know that Kamisha is a work in progress just as we all are works in progress and I wish us all well also. My friend I am ideally impressed by the experience that I just had upon dialing your phone number. I will continue to wish you well and I will put a prayer up for the continued manifestation of your job and spirit. Your job represents a young entrepreneur who has his two college degrees from very respected universities and decided to pave his own route. And you've taking jobs as an administrator, college teacher and such and I think that you've possibly arrived at your vocational calling Harlan. I am most impressed and I do not type that statement lightly and I do wish you well, but, that has always been my thought with respect to you my good friend. Continue to take care of your son, yourself and your business sir and I shall say God bless and goodbye.

Scoot

Washington Talents 3-24-09


As my father and I were returning from Cracker Barrel restaurant we were listening to the car stereo. The radio was on some news channel and the radioperson was giving complements to some university's coach who's team had won the year's #1 ranking or championship of something. Now I could not rightfully determine the sport that they were speaking about nor could I determine the name of the institution that the coach worked for at first? As I listen to the radio a little longer I was able to find out the the school played at a division level 3 of some sort. I then heard the announcer say something about Washington so I immediately thought of the state of Washington. I then heard the radioperson say that the players on the team were very dedicated to their schoolwork. The teamplayers were even allowed to take their exams whilst they were in another state being under a monitored environment. So I began to try to figure out the name of the school in which the coach worked for. Low and behold he works for your alumni Washington University. Washington University has won the tournament for the division that they are ranked in. I just thought that I'd inform you if you did not already know that happening. I think highly of the school and it's graduates for the most part and I think they have or had a really good volleyball team. And for Washington University to be able to win the highest ranking at their level really impresses me. Hmm, not only can a Washington University student take a person down in things concerning the medicalfield. If need be a Washington University student might also take a person to the hole and slam dunk in their face. I wish you well and I do hope that you and your son had a great Easter. I shall talk to you in due time my good friend.

Scoot

There Will Never Be Another Like Him 6-28-09


I am thankful for the songs, performances, aura, humanity and all the wonderful things that Michael Jackson has added to the world. I honestly can say
that I'm not that amazed by the passing of Michael Jackson because his health has been in a very feeble demeanor for years. I bothered not to try and
gain a firm understanding of Michael's religion or relationship with God. My quick thought is that Michael was uncertain, disturbed or possibly confused
about his spirituality. I decided to resign from even trying to even dare analyze Michael's stance on creation and afterlife. I labeled him to be an
awkward, very eccentric, socially prematurely stunted, inverted, sensitive, isolated, ill, thin, incredibly talented man. Now was he a pedophile or an
intentional abuser of children I would think not. Mr. Jackson was just a man whom had no childhood that would allow him to mature into a functional mature
adult. The ingredients needed for such development of a formidable, responsible, analytical citizen were absent in young Michael's life. Michael did
not have friends that he could run around with and play different sports, date or socialize with on any unmonitored platform like you or I. The vast majority
of little Michael's life was usually on the lights, camera, action platform in front of millions or better yet billions of strangers. Joe Jackson had
placed his children on a regiment because he was determined to move his family out of Gary, Indiana and enjoy a better life. Now Joe Jackson was a disciplinarian
whom thought that the best way to achieve something is to do it over and over again repetitiously to have the action firmly engrained. Joe Jackson would
train or I should say order his children to perform to his liking or on occasion be reprimanded rather forcefully. The members of the Jackson 5 would
be sternly guided and harshly punished if they didn't perform practices as Joe wished. I believed that the Jackson family claimed to be Jehovah Witnesses
when they were growing up. I question if any of the Jackson family are still Jehovah Witnesses anymore and how firmly they subscribe to the pathway now.
I know that Jermaine Jackson claimed to be a member of the Nation of Islam or Muslims. I do hope that Michael Jackson has been allowed into Heaven because
I do suspect that Michael has a good heart. His intentions I'll assume were of a good nature, however, if he didn't think Jesus Christ to be the one and
only Messiah to Heaven he will not be allowed. A person could be the nicest person walking the Earth, but, extreme, good sincerity isn't enough to gain
eternal bliss. I Haven't definite certainty, but, I'll continue to believe that if one does not come to the understanding that Jesus Christ is the only
way, truth and the life eternal bliss one will not receive. Whenever I'm not certain about something concerning the Word I will investigate the manner
and respond in the most righteous manner. I will ask questions and research the manner via academically Christian studied people and I'll research the
manner via gospels and such. I've found out that when you ask different people questions about the word sometimes their opinions may vary to various degrees.
I enjoy looking for the correct thought being implied in the Word because such seeking firms up the knowledge that I've already obtained. Plus as said
I sometimes gain a richer understanding of verses that I already knew in the past. I wish Michael Jackson to experience a blissful eternity because I
think him to be a peaceful, caring, gentle person. Michael Jackson has made billions of dollars within his 50 years on this Earth, but, if he isn't allowed
into Heaven it is all for not. Michael's passing just further reinforces the importance of living your life as best that you can whilst on Earth. Michael
Jackson even had me wearing a Beat It jacket, saying hee, hees, jum moane, momma say mamma sa mo ma cu sa and the barrage of grunts and hisses he'd do.
Even though he is gone Michael has dare I say made the biggest splash of any performer and I think such mark will probably never be matched. From little
Michael singing that Ben song about that little rodent that he thought so fondly of all the way to the concerts that he would have performed in England
had he not died. I listened to a person who evaluates monies that will be made from concerts and the person said that Michael could have earned 400 million
dollars total from those concerts that he was about to perform. I am aware that some people may tend to make things sound a little more grander when speaking
on matters concerning those whom recently dearly departed. Might that person have been stretching the truth we will never know. I will be ending this
e-mail so that I can say my prayers, contemplate this day and to Snoozeville I shall adrift. Take care and God bless.

Scoot